What To Write...

I'm not certain as to what I am going to say at the moment...

I'll just begin to type and see what comes of it.

I am ready. I'm ready for anything and everything that comes my way. I used to worry so much about what my future held. All that worry never got me anywhere. I was so fixated on trying to plan my life out that I never even stopped to enjoy the things that life had to offer. I rarely stopped to bask in the warm glow of the sunshine. I hardly ever just let myself stop and reflect on the day. I never even really enjoyed the small amounts of time that I spent with the people I loved.

When I was younger I used to read a lot. I ALWAYS had a book in my hands or rather I had my nose stuck in a book. I dreamt of being like the characters in my books. I wanted so badly to be different. I didn't want to be...me. I got swept away in all the romance and glamour of the story that when I would put the book down...I hated living my life.

I've since come to find that I have a pretty fantastic life. I have a GOD that sent His only Son to die for my sins. I have a family that, for the most part, supports me no matter what. I have the most amazing friends a girl could ask for. My boyfriend is awesome :) My school, no matter how flawed, has helped to shape me into the woman that I am today. Not much to complain about.

I don't know. I still sometimes look back on my past and regret some things. I regret giving into satan's stupid tricks. I regret not dealing with my depression sooner than I did. I regret not being able to tell my papa that I loved him once more before he passed away. But all of my regrets do not outweigh my positive outlook on the future. I'm starting to realize that I am growing. No matter if I want to or not. I am gearing up for whatever it may be that God has in store for me. Big changes are going to come about and you know what??? I am ready!!!